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Feeling damn tired, but decided to post anyway

A strong foundation in anything will make anything last. For example, a building with a strong basic foundation dug can be build fast and stable. For studies, if you had a very stong basic foundation in it, you dont have to study your ass off for examation because the foundation you have for that subject can answer the questions ask. Same goes for the relationsgip between people. When you and your friend has strong knowledge about each other, misunderstanding that leads to quarrel can never occur because you both know each other well enough.

The question is, how are those built? Well, i don’t know because i never had a friend so close that knows me like the back of her hand or can read me like a book. I hope to have one though, it must be nice to have someone who loves you for you, remember your important ocassions, to be concern about you (even though you are irritated by it). Most importantly, you can act like yourself around that best friend because she knows. Then you also love her for her, remember her important days and never fight for silly, insignifant things.

Even if i don’t know how that works, i think the strong understanding between is built though willingness. The willingness to understand each other and to accept each other ’s shortcomings. Small little fight once in a while too can help because when you 2 are good again, you will understand each other more than ever before. But that is if the fight ends.

Sometimes, i feel that friends are burdening but nevertheless, they are important part of you life. No man is an island, human can’t achieve things along, that is why they need friends to help.

Okay, don’t know why but i think i sounded kindadowncast here. Not, i don’t feel down now but tired.  Actually i was thinking of posting about how i should study physics by understanding it’s basic laws of it and ____ i forgot what is it called. Formula? no, i think is something like find out why is it like that, okay, i dont know what im saying becasue my brain is feeling too tired to remember anything and to make out sentences that makes sense.

Whatever duh.

Yay, today last day of CT1 of 2009.

Guess what? me failed Chinese language. Not that my Chinese is not good, but the paper wa diffcult, seriously. I think it is A level standard de LOR. Even, my Chinese teacher for China thinks that the paper was diffcult. And that was proven by the number of ppl who failed. Cool hur.  Don’t know whym i just felt like saying the word ‘cool’ now. So i shall. Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool Cool. Note : i typed every single of the word ‘cool’. I did not copy and paste it We’re cool. We’re so cool that if we stand next to the sun, it would FREEZE. How COOL is that hur.

Ew, i feel extremely bloated now. All i ate today was: Morning – koko cereal and a cup of Milo, Recess- A red bean bun and 3 nuggets, When i got home(ard 6.15 after i bath)- a peice of bread first the one packet of nasi lamak. DARN, i feel really full( my stomach) now.

Aiya need to jian fei – go jogging on sunday. Need to find someone pei me!

BYE STINKIES

If you can’t do it then you shouldn’t promise them that you will do it because that wasn’t even a promise, it was an EMPTY promise. There is a very huge difference between them okay? You should not even give me a chance to think that that will happen. Don’t bring my hopes up and let it down.Do you know how it feels like? Blast it.

And it was obviously your wrong. Don’t make it sound like i’m the unreasonable brat who was trying to make your life difficult. It was your fault right from the start,  since you were the one who suggest that.  Since you said that, it was only natural for me to take your words for real. Man, I wonder how many times has it happened? Blame myself for being stupid enough to actually believe you when my brain actually knew that you are lying. Human just like to balieve things they want to hur?

Nevermind, i will get my notebook someday, i knew that will happen.

Anyway, today English CT 1 paper 2 was erm… freakin difficult?But it wasn’t difficult in a sense that it was actually quite straight to the point. Both passage was about elephants. How are the authories are trying to alleviate their pain. However, blast the summary! I was taking my own sweet time to find the points which i was certain that they weren’t the points that the summary wants. Then why did i wrote it? I don’t know. Can’t be bothered to change? Maybe.

I’m going to study now, i’m going to study earnestly every single day. Less than 10 for ‘O’ level L1R5 result. I am not going to lose.

For hard work will definitely be pay off. I’m aiming for the stars so if i fall, i’ll fall among the clouds Along the way, there will be Follow your heart and believe in those who believed in you, surely you will be able to achieve your great dreams.doubters, non -believers but dare to dream , plan for it and work for it.

Man, Ilove me

The Call by Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
‘Til it was a battle cry

I’ll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You’ll come back
When it’s over
No need to say good bye

You’ll come back
When it’s over
No need to say good bye

Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
‘Til they’re before your eyes

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

 The very first emotion, the very first feeling that makes me ponder.                       The very first opinion of  the very pretty sky. I don’t want to let it pass and forget about it or change my view on it.

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Hate it when people ask me questions that I am supposed to know but I don’t.

Love it when I bomb them with questions which they don’t know and I do

I shall start to keep track of my thoughts and emotion on a book, a journal? Because I dont want to look back and don’t remember how I make it though  get that far.

What a random title.

Struggling but still optimistic.

There is no point in explaining more than once to a person who doesn’t believe you. Because no matter what, they had already judged your ways and action. 

I don’t understand ( perhaps i do) why people would judge someone  before even judging and admit to their weakness,they critisize someone. How ironic hur?

Perhaps, she thought i was jealous, but no im not because her chinese is better than mine anyway, but she DID cheat. I can’ t  stand the was she make it like she can score the same marks if different questions were given to her.  First, i bet you say that because you won’t get a different questions from teacher because they doesn’t know you actually cheated for godness sake! and second, I think that it is wrong of you to critisize someone who actually treated you as her friend. IF you treat her like a real friend, then you shouldn’t be critising her because of the way she laugh. That is her and accept it because no one is perfect. Also, the tone and expression you used when you say those words were revolting and unpleasent. Would you be happy if someone were to say exactly the same thing to you? Before you critisize a man, do some reflection first.

I don’t know why dint i ask her that when she spoke those unpleasant words. I shall ask her that and see if she got anything to say.

Yes, i am critising a friend. But, i am also merely stating a fact. I bet she thinks she is perfect but unfortunately, that is not the case. She is definitely not someone whom i will consider as a friend. Perhaps we are just acquaintance.

This is seriosly the first time that i get so frustarated about someone for so long and i hope it will be the last. Believe me, the kind of feeling i have now is terrible.I can’t believe i have to see her everyday. It is getting more unbearable, honestly.

This is me & gotta find you. Think that those two songs are nice like only today? hahahaha. they are nice but i don’t like it at first. Therefore i concluded – What kind of songs i like depends on my mood. I kept listening to Fm static’s songs as well, yes, it is only recently. When i listen  to musics, i listen to the song’s tune rather than the lyrics sometimes.

Alright, enough about musics. Common test is starting next week, and i haven’t start to revise/ study ! CRAPPY, DRATS. Whatever, after i have my meal i shall start to study, revise and plan a timetable for this week and this coming week - study smart

Before i end, i just wanna say Festival Of Praise aka FOP is really great ! ” Control how you think, thought and do so you will have  a destiny of what you desire. NOT let how your thinking and actions control you and your destiny. ” By Mark Conor or is it Coner? or neither or them?

Desert Song by Hillsongs rocks

There is always a sliver lining in every dark clouds. The sliver lining will be always there waiting for you to see it. Oh I’ve found it! how lame. hahahaha. Trails may seem long ( few weeks ) Now that it is over, i gotta strive and achieve for the highest, greatest and not stressing meself and stumble again :D

God will always be there to shine the light, i knew it.

I guess what i have just said isn’t what i really wants to type, ‘cos i don;t feel free. Actually what i am gonna said is- see the world through my eyes. okay, this is not making any sense. Whatever :p

Super cold today! All the way from morning to the evening. Furthermore, i had spent the whole afternoon in the music room, which had made me or rather, everyone in music room felt even cold-er.

I know my goals, yet i am reluctant to do anything to achieve it.

Do i need a blue sky holiday or i’m just painfully numb?

I feel my passion for the goal no longer, perhaps, that is called numb. 

I know staying like this does me no good, yet i don’t feel the urge to change.

Like a worn out tyre - can’t carry on moving passionately.

YUCKSSSSSSSS, I hate to be disturb when i am JUST about to start study. Maybe i am just lazy luh.

BLEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I’ve been thinking if i should post this out, you know. I have a acquaintance, yea. Acquaintance. I wonder, doesn’t she know that she is say, not thin? fit?  If she does, why does she kept thinking she is fit, think or sth? Why some fat ppl thinks that they are thin and not admit it ( not all, is ’she’ particularly) ? I wonder. they are some self denial ppl hur?

I don’t think i sound mean, i have tried my best to sound nice here alr b’cos i am only referring to her. I have too, hold back when ever and comment something about me which is basically not nice and in a very insulting manner. Why must she keep pulling others down? There is only one answer, she is very very super duper uber insecure. However, that doesn’t and definitely do not give her the right to pull down other’s self esteem and make them feel bad about themselves. I can’t stand her when she did that. I know she won’t read this but i wish to say – ” hey, get a life” .

why can’t i tell it straight in her face?. you might ask. alright, let me be honest here, i do have trouble speaking the deepest thought of my mind, and i might be blah blah when i tell her. Being a petty person- which she did not show it out person she is, she and i are through if i tell her straight. She will bear a grudge and won’t talk to me for life. That is what she did to somebody after all.

Hi, i hope this picture won’t give whoever is reading a shock.

Anyway, i tip-toed back home yesterday. All because of the LKK shoe. Well, ppl says new shoes bites, but tht shoe is 5 months old alr. Perchance, that shoe is new at heart? HAHA!

Today, i woke up, unsure of who i am- I’m the child of God, i just have to see the world through the mind of christ.

These past month, Journey was well, so so. maybe the reason i say that it is so-so is b’cos i’m afraid to said out the real ans or i don’t want to admit it?  I figure and heard from God that we must never forget the first reason for what are we doing. It is the same in the journey w/ God. When you forget the first reason, first love you had for Him, you will definitely feel different. I feel weird whenever i’m sharing what i’m feeling, guess i communicate like a man. Well, that is what the quiz says.

We love b’cos He first love us